Tuesday, October 28, 2014

Replace Fear With Love.

Replacing fear with love feels like repairing a broken record. Slowly sifting through the scattered pieces and trying to understand the subtle cuts and edges of each record piece and how each one fell in the first place. Where did this fear come from? How did it evolve? How did I birth this fear within me?

Magic is what will put it back together again, and effort, time, patience and acceptance -- acceptance that the flaws will always remain after repair but that the record will still provide the same function -- to inspire, to serve, to enlighten and bring joy to hearts every where. It will move around the record player as it did many times before but after a good cleaning and breakage, the record will sound clearer and be revered in a new way.

On the other side of fear, is love, renewal and rejuvenation. Chase your fear and listen closely to its unique beat. It is calling you to your destiny. It is calling you home. 

Beyond the Noise

Beyond all external noise, there is a deep and profound silence within me. There is an unwavering and rooted sense of peace and quiet confidence. This is home. No bit of fuzzy noise can take me away from my sacred home of silence. The silence begins as it beats in my heart, my sun. It slowly runs down the flat plains of my upper chest, and then down and over the peaked mountains that are my full breasts. It flows down into the running river that is my long torso, through my loins it then goes, whir pooling into the wild and wise forest. The silence continues on, coursing through my solid tree trunks, and lastly, it settles down into my rooted feet.

May my silence be my beacon, my natural rhythm, my guide.

Get lost in the ocean of silence. Get lost in the silence of your heart.

A Poem About Darkness

Release. Be with. Sit with... the discomfort, the not knowing, the pain. Sit with...the sadness, the hurt, the confusion. Sit with... the self-hate and the self-abuse. Sit with... the darkness.

On the other side of fear, there is love , bliss, hope, revival, renewal and contentment. May the darkness reverberate, tingle, and bubble up to boil through your whole being...may it transform into light.

Step into the discomfort and pain, do not ignore it.

Sit, sit, sit.

Walk through it, walk, walk, walk... dance through it, dance, dance, dance...breathe through it. Breathe, breathe, breathe.

Dare to do the opposite of what you think you should be doing.

Tuesday, August 5, 2014

The Space Between

The space between thoughts, a thought. The space between a breath. What is it? What does it feel like? What does it look like?

It is serenity.
It is calm.
It is clarity.
It is beauty.

The space in my heart between one beat and the next. What is there?

It is serenity.
It is love.
It is patience.

One beat quietly awaits the next.  Beat by beat, each one works work together as each slowly pumps love into my veins. More love. More love. Love overflowing. Love enriching. Love filling me up to where I feel I may burst.

What is there?

Is there heartbreak?

Is there sadness?

Listen and all will be clear.

Maybe tears will come rushing down my face the minute I stop to say hello to the space between one beat and the next.

Or maybe there will be laughter?  Or tears of joy, a sigh of relief, wonder, shock, pain.

It is all waiting there to be watched, observed, heard. Analyzed? No, because the thought doesn't matter. The heart -- the feeling -- listen to THAT.

Sometimes after a long day at work, I need to stop and listen -- breathe. I take one, two or three deep, expansive, heart opening breaths. This is what my soul needs, what I need.

Ask me what I need. This is the only truth -- not material things but space, time, quiet -- breathing, being, listening.

Saturday, April 12, 2014

My Power -- Universal Power.

I want to love myself. I want to heal me.

I am grateful for the blood that moves through my veins and my inner energy that is able to make it move and flow, awakening me. I am thankful for the world's energy that runs through me - rivers, animals, creatures, wind, fire, waterfalls and their mighty power - this is all within me.
Thank you. 

My breath is the world's wind. 
My water, running through my cells is the world's rivers, lakes and oceans. 
My heat is the world's blazing fire. 
My solid, rock-like energy in my lower chakras is the earth, ground, dirt of the world. 

We are all connected. 

I am grateful for breath because it connects me to wind.
I am grateful for water that comes out of my tap, because it connects me to my water, my saliva, my inner movement and flow, my clarity, my aliveness. 

Let it wash over me and make everything clear and pure again. Water has the power to heal. 

Stop for a moment and let the earth run through you, let it imbue stillness, gratitude --it will make you feel connected, ailve -- it will take your breath away or perhaps it might even awaken you to your breath. It has been there all along. 

Thursday, December 12, 2013

I am woman.

I am woman. I am questions, not direct statement. I am open and expansive, not contraction. I do not speak at. I hear, I listen, I speak to. I am the moon, opening her silver, bright, emboldened, round face to the world. I am from the heart, not constant logic. I am feelings first, letting the emotions out. Heart first, mind logic second. I am woman.

Do not speak to me as if you know better, just because you are a man. Do not speak down to me, because you think you know better. Get to me know better. I am your equal, not your subservient other. I do not serve you just because I am a woman. I know just as much as you. We are different. I have female intuition, which is knowledge, even if you don't recognize it as so. Our knowledge is special, it is unique. It is a world wonder. Our intuition develops minds and supports whole communities. Our intuition moves mountains.

My weaknesses are also my strengths. They are my building blocks which construct a tower of resilience. My power is my weakness, it is my secret weapon from which I learn, from which I gain deep wisdom. You see, without weakness, we are weak. We are nothingness, unchanging. I am woman. I am special because I allow sadness to come over me like a tidal wave. You see it as weakness. I see it as learning. You see it as letting your guard down, I see it as strength. You see it as giving up, I see it as giving in to the great power.

You state. I see. I believe in the soft ask. I am not below you, I am beside you. Do not underestimate my power , it is as strong and as bright as yours, just like the moon.  Because I am woman. I shine.


Thursday, January 31, 2013

A cure for the winter blues: caring for the soul and the body.

I can't help but notice how unaffected I feel by the Canadian winter this year. This comes as a big surprise after recently returning from Nicaragua in December. Before returning to Canada, I spent a little more than a month preparing myself for the shock I would experience going from 27-30 degree heat to -10 freezing cold.

The first quick run I made from the arrivals gate in the airport to the car definitely had my body squirming and shivering but after a few weeks of settling in, I felt relatively "adjusted." Perhaps it is because I spent 1 month mentally preparing myself for the cold that when I did arrive to it, it didn't seem so bad. Or perhaps it was because I was ready to experience some cold. Call me crazy, but I am a proud Canadian who loves  the crispy chill of a cold winter night wind. I guess I see some romance in it. I always see through glasses with a hint of rose tint ;)

Choose to see the beauty in even the coldest months of the year.  (Pic taken on Lake of Bays, Ontario)
I am also seriously owing the way I have treated my body in the last year -- specifically diet choices and medicine -- to the reason why the blues don't get me down. Don't get me wrong, I have my moments, but that slow and dull drag, where winter's lull feels like it is perpetually bringing me down, just hasn't seemed to hit me.
Clare, happy to be in Northern Canada, surrounded by pine trees and snow covered lakes! (Lake of Bays, Ontario)
 For about a year now, I have been living my life as a (very happy) vegan. I also adhere to Traditional Chinese Medicine (TCM), mainly taking herbs and receiving acupuncture sessions from world renowned TCM healer , Jeanette Wayne , who practices right here in Toronto.

I try my best to eat all organic food and so try to keep my body as chemical and pesticide free as possible. This is not only a healthier option for me but it also has major positive impacts for our planet, mainly soil and ecosystem quality, to name a few.

The diet is great and has helped me to feel less fatigued, drowsy (especially in the morning), bloated and all around more energized. The herbs I take have funny labels on them like "happy pills" and more informative ones like "sleep enhancement and energy therapy." The herbs clean toxins from the body, reduce inflammation and each one depending on their kind, work to improve the qi energy that we all have in our body. Some herbs focus on the kidneys and liver, while others on the spleen, for example. To learn more about qi and the philosophy behind TCM, go here.

 Overall, the herbs provide a certain kind of therapy to the body that balances our overall energy. I, for example, have always experienced cold in my limbs since I can remember. Not even 25 degree heat can warm my footsies up! As I have gotten to know Jeanette and experienced her treatments, my body has slowly warmed up, feels more balanced, and I have learned that no one needs to suffer this kind of discomfort!

After a year and three months of taking the herbs, my sleep has never been so deep, my skin glows, and I feel all around like a happier-go-luckier person.

I guess what I am getting at is that we as Canadians, and all those living in the Northern Hemisphere of the world, do not need to watch ourselves experience needless suffering. If we just invest some of our time taking care of ourselves, mind, body and spirit, there is no reason to feel the blues ever again!